Anodyne

0xea
0xea

0xea (Xea, Christie)

My 2024 blood plasma concentrations
My beloved plush bunny called Molly!
What's underneeth the smile (4th day sleep deprivation)
help.png (an old depiction of how my mind experiences itself)
My left arm hotspot map

Hyia~!, I am 0xea.

proto-, staying alive through abusive means of intravenous intervention.

Chat me up! <3

Risking it all is still an acceptable option for 15-30 minutes of comfort.

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Psyche

Complications

ComplicationCause
  • Intravenous Contaminant ( potencial filter contamination while scraping from standing sniffing plate)
  • 1700mg Oral Caffeine on the 6. October 2023 ( tormenting 12 hour ordeal; convulsions; hyperventilation; (180+ bpm); and stiff feeling in my right arm; face drooping; strong numbing of sensations on the right side of my body; the following days struggles to walk due to weak heart and type)
  • 100mg Intravenous Amphetamine ( hyperventilation on the floor of workplace bathroom; (160+ bpm); ; face drooping; moderate numbing of sensations on the right side of my body)
  • ~50mg Intravenous Methylphenidate on the 26. May 2024 ( crushed and dissolved extended release pellets out of mortar; ; moderate numbing of sensations on the right side of my body)

Routes of Administration

Route of AdministrationSiteParaphernalia
Intravenous
  • Cephalic
  • Median cubital
  • Femoral
  • Dorsal metacarpal
  • Small saphenous
  • Dorsal venous arch
  • Great saphenous
  • 1ml insulin syringe
  • 1ml luer-lock syringe
  • 3ml luer-lock syringe
  • 5ml luer-lock syringe with butterfly needle
  • 10ml luer-lock syringe with butterfly needle
  • 5ml luer-lock syringe
  • 0.3ml insulin syringe
Inhaled
  • Lungs
  • Metered-dose Inhaler
  • Vaporizer
  • Base pipe
  • Foily
  • Straight "Crack" pipe
  • Volatile fumes
  • Combusted
Subcutaneous
  • Stomach
  • Thigh
  • Upper arm
  • Injector pen
  • 0.3ml syringe
  • 1ml syringe
Intrarectal
  • Rectum
  • 1ml syringe
  • Suppository
Intramuscular
  • Deltoid
  • Vastus lateralis
  • Vastus intermedius
  • 1ml syringe
  • Injector pen
Intranasal
  • Nose
  • Plate and cutter
  • Syringe adapter atomizer
  • Nasalspray
Transdermal
  • Upper arm
  • Stomach
  • Patch
Oral
  • Mouth
  • Capsule
  • Solution
  • Tablet
  • Powder

Substance Matrix (tried 117 substances)

Substance Ranklists

Stimulants

CompoundStructureNotes
4-Methylpentedrone[hydrochloride] via Insufflated, Intravenous
3,4-Methylenedioxy-α-pyrrolidinoisohexanophenone[hydrochloride] via Insufflated, Intravenous
Dextroamphetamine[sulfate] via Oral, Intravenous
α-Pyrrolidinopentiophenone[hydrochloride] via Intravenous, Vaporized, Intrarectal
3,4-Methylenedioxy-α-pyrrolidinohexiophenone[freebase][hydrochloride][citrate] via Insufflated, Intravenous, Vaporized
Metaphedrone[hydrochloride] via Intravenous, Insufflated, Subcutaneous, Oral, Intrarectal, Vaporized
Dextromethamphetamine[hydrochloride] via Oral, Insufflated, Intrarectal, Subcutaneous, Intramuscular, Intravenous, Vaporized
Lisdexamphetamine[dimesylate] via Oral, Intravenous
Orthophedrone[hydrochloride] via Intravenous, Insufflated, Subcutaneous, Oral, Intrarectal
5-Dihydrobenzofuranpyrovalerone[hydrochloride] via Insufflated, Intravenous
  • moderate ; uncomfortable intravenously
Amphetamine[freebase][sulfate][hydrochloride] via Oral, Insufflated, Intrarectal, Subcutaneous, Intramuscular, Intravenous, Inhaled, Vaporized, Sublingual
Cocaine[freebase][hydrochloride][citrate] via Intravenous, Vaporized
N-Ethyl-nor-pentedrone[hydrochloride] via Insufflated, Intravenous, Intrarectal, Oral
  • duration: short intravenous
  • intense ; quite tweaky
Mephedrone[hydrochloride] via Oral, Insufflated, Intravenous, Intrarectal, Vaporized
3-Methylethcathinone[hydrochloride] via Insufflated, Intravenous
Brephedrone[hydrochloride] via Insufflated
  • effective dosing not reached
Flophedrone[hydrochloride] via Insufflated, Intravenous
Dimethocaine[freebase][citrate] via Intravenous, Vaporized
  • strong numbing effect both in veins and mouth; mild ; pleasant vaporized
Methylphenidate[hydrochloride] via Oral, Intravenous
Ethylphenidate[hydrochloride] via Oral
Caffeine[freebase][citrate] via Oral, Insufflated, Intravenous
  • light ; discomfort at higher doses; toxicity has nearly taken my life
Nicotine[freebase][benzoate] via Vaporized, Transdermal
Modafinil via Oral
  • effects not notable
Bupropion[hydrochloride] via Oral, Intravenous
N-Ethyl-nor-heptedrone[hydrochloride] via Insufflated, Intravenous
3-Fluoroethamphetamine[hydrochloride] via Intravenous
  • barely active even when intravenously administered
4-Fluoromethamphetamine[hydrochloride] via Intravenous
  • barely active even when intravenously administered; softer curve
4-Methylbuphedrone[hydrochloride] via Insufflated, Intrarectal, Intravenous
  • barely active; more than stimulating
Pseudoephedrine[hydrochloride] via Oral, Vaporized, Intravenous
Salbutamol[sulfate] via Inhaled
Formoterol[sulfate] via Inhaled
α-Pyrrolidino-2-phenylacetophenone[hydrochloride] via Insufflated, Intravenous

Entactogens

CompoundStructureNotes
3,4-Methylenedioxymethamphetamine[hydrochloride] via Oral, Intravenous
Cocaine[freebase][hydrochloride][citrate] via Intravenous, Vaporized
3,4-Methylenedioxy-α-pyrrolidinoisohexanophenone[hydrochloride] via Insufflated, Intravenous
Mephedrone[hydrochloride] via Oral, Insufflated, Intravenous, Intrarectal, Vaporized
Metaphedrone[hydrochloride] via Intravenous, Insufflated, Subcutaneous, Oral, Intrarectal, Vaporized
Orthophedrone[hydrochloride] via Intravenous, Insufflated, Subcutaneous, Oral, Intrarectal

Dissociatives

CompoundStructureNotes
2-Fluorodeschloroketamine[hydrochloride] via Insufflated
  • duration: ~3 hours insufflated
  • similar to ketamine but more potent; mind melting dissociative effects
Eticyclidone[hydrochloride] via Insufflated
  • duration: ~5 hours insufflated
  • smooth long acting effects; difficult self-asssesment; induces functional ; helps deal with sensory overload and social interactions;
Methoxpropamine[hydrochloride] via Insufflated
  • smooth effects; induces functional ; difficult self-asssesment
Nitrous oxide via Inhaled
  • overwhelming pulsing and buzzing; utterly ; strong remaining visual noise; auditory alteration and loudening; intense ; flavor reminicent of whipped cream; ; feelings of inexpressable revelations
Ketamine[hydrochloride] via Insufflated, Intravenous
Tolicyclidine[hydrochloride] via Oral, Insufflated
Deschloroketamine[hydrochloride] via Insufflated
  • similar to ketamine but slighly more rough
Dextromethorphan[hydrobromide] via Oral
  • effective dosing not reached; might have worsened previous psychosis

Psychedelics

CompoundStructureNotes
Lysergic acid fluorodiethylamide via Oral
Dimethyltryptamine via Vaporized
  • duration: 3 minutes vaporized
  • ~15mg vaporized produced very light effects but made me leave with newfound meaning and motivation; ~20mg vaporized produced feelings of shooting through space while completely clear in my head, very clean beautiful visuals; ~25mg vaporized produced feelings of being torn out of my body and lost in space; ~30mg vaporized made my subconcious start talking "please help me, I want to leave this place(refering to my place in life)"
Lysergic acid diethylamide via Oral
  • made me more concious of how dissociation influences my perception of reality; broke communication down to a fluid simplified interface; vulnerable animalistic perception of organic living beings; enabled understanding repressed part of myself
2,5-Dimethoxy-4-bromophenethylamine via map[Name:Oral], Intravenous
2,5-Dimethoxy-4-chloro-N-(2-methoxybenzyl)phenethylamine via Oral, Sublingual

Hormone medications

CompoundStructureNotes
Estradiol undecylate via Subcutaneous, Intramuscular
  • estradiol prodrug ester; produces stable levels with no crashes when injected monthly
Estradiol enantate via Subcutaneous, Intramuscular
  • estradiol prodrug ester; minor crashes when injected weekly; discomfort when injected every 4 days
Estradiol cypionate via Subcutaneous
  • estradiol prodrug ester; crashes when injected weekly
Estradiol valerate via Subcutaneous, Intramuscular
  • estradiol prodrug ester; crashes when injected weekly
Estradiol[hemihydrate] via Transdermal
  • life saving hormone; caused figure changes; breast growth; body hair reduction; skin smoothing;
Dutasteride via Oral
  • significantly reduced hairloss; no side effects; very long halflife
Cyproterone acetate via Oral
  • helpful when estradiol levels drop below monotherapy levels; no side effects noticed so far
Beclometasone dipropionate via Inhaled
  • -
Melatonin via Oral
  • barely effective sleeping aid; potencially improves quality of sleep
Hydrocortisone via Dermal
  • -
Finasteride via Oral
  • coincided significant suicidal thoughts; very short halflife; stopped treatment after a month

Opioids

CompoundStructureNotes
Mitragynine via Oral
6-Monoacetylmorphine[citrate] via Intravenous
Diacetylmorphine[citrate][ascorbate] via Vaporized, Intravenous
Loperamide via Oral
  • -
Oxycodone via Oral, Intravenous

Antipsychotics

CompoundStructureNotes
Quetiapine via Oral
  • somewhat ; seams to relieve psychosis at proper dose; moderate ; unsure about effects on allergy
Amisulpride via Oral
  • quite pleasant antipsychotic
Promethazine via Oral
Aripiprazole via Oral

Sedatives

CompoundStructureNotes
Bromazepam via Oral
Lorazepam via Oral
Alprazolam via Oral, Intravenous
Diazepam via Oral, Intravenous
Temgicoluril via Oral
Pregabalin via Oral
Amlodipine[besylate] via Oral
  • -
Zolpidem[tartrate] via Oral
  • effective ; strange thoughts and dreams; visual thoughts
Ethanol via Oral, Inhaled, Intravenous
Baflofen via Oral
  • no notable anxiety suppression; coincided severe
Benzylalcohol via Oral, Subcutaneous, Intramuscular, Dermal, Intradermal
  • sweet marzipan like smell turning sickly; low solubility in water; 2.5% dilution very bitter and mouth numbing; 0.25% dilution bareable dare I say nice with a bunch of sugar; ; local anesthetic properties
Butane via Inhaled
Isopropanol via Inhaled
Acetone via Inhaled
Phenol via Oral, Dermal
  • accidental exposure through contamination; spill on hand causing blistering; suicide preparation

Cannabinoids

CompoundStructureNotes
Tetrahydrocannabinol via Vaporized
10-Hydroxyhexahydrocannabinol via Vaporized
Cannabidiol via Oral, Vaporized

Antihistamines

CompoundStructureNotes
Cetirizine[hydrochloride] via Oral
  • seamed too improve allergy symptoms
Bilastine via Oral
  • seamed too improve allergy symptoms
Diphenhydramine via Oral
Dimenhydrinate via Oral
  • -
Mirtazapine via Oral
  • creates unique bodily feeling; seams to suppress histamine effects; for 2 days straight
Promethazine via Oral
Quetiapine via Oral
  • somewhat ; seams to relieve psychosis at proper dose; moderate ; unsure about effects on allergy

Antidepressants

CompoundStructureNotes
Fluoxetine via Oral
  • noted acute effects; long term no notable improvement in quality of life; slight potenciation of dextroamphetamine through CYP2D6 inhibition
Sertraline via Oral
  • seams to improve well being after MDMA use; notable potenciation of dextroamphetamine through CYP2D6 inhibition
Mirtazapine via Oral
  • creates unique bodily feeling; seams to suppress histamine effects; for 2 days straight

Amino acids

CompoundStructureNotes
3,4-Dihydroxyphenylalanine via Oral
  • subjective locomotor-activity increase; subjective mood-improvement
Oxitriptan via Oral
  • seams to improve wellbeing after MDMA use
Theanine via Oral
  • light but pleasant effects
Omberacetam via Oral
Acetylcysteine via Oral
Pyridoxine via Oral, Intravenous
  • uncertain activity; cold shudder upon intravenous injection
N-Acetyl-L-tyrosine via Oral, Intravenous
  • mild adrenic activity; corrosive in veins
Tryptophan via Oral
  • uncertain activity
Tyrosine via Oral
  • uncertain activity
γ-Aminobutyric acid via Oral
  • uncertain activity

Antiemetics

CompoundStructureNotes
Domperidone via Oral
Promethazine via Oral
Butylscopolamine[hydrobromide] via Oral
Diphenhydramine via Oral

Antihypertensives

CompoundStructureNotes
Minoxidil via Transdermal, Oral
Pregabalin via Oral
Amlodipine[besylate] via Oral
  • -

NSAIDs

CompoundStructureNotes
Acetylsalicylic acid via Oral, Insufflated
  • reliefs minor headaches; causes useful blood thinning for stroke prevention
Ibuprofen via Oral
  • effects not notable
Paracetamol via Oral
  • effects not notable

Local anesthetics

CompoundStructureNotes
Cocaine[freebase][hydrochloride][citrate] via Intravenous, Vaporized
Benzylalcohol via Oral, Subcutaneous, Intramuscular, Dermal, Intradermal
  • sweet marzipan like smell turning sickly; low solubility in water; 2.5% dilution very bitter and mouth numbing; 0.25% dilution bareable dare I say nice with a bunch of sugar; ; local anesthetic properties
Benzocaine[freebase] via Buccal
  • strong numbing effect in mouth
Dimethocaine[freebase][citrate] via Intravenous, Vaporized
  • strong numbing effect both in veins and mouth; mild ; pleasant vaporized
Menthol via Insufflated, Vaporized
  • decongestant effects; cooling sensation; reduces smoking irritation

Wound care

CompoundStructureNotes
Octenidine[Dihydrochloride] via Dermal
  • antisepectic wound treatment
Ethylcyanoacrylate via Dermal
  • suboptimal for closing cuts; quite brittle

Misc

CompoundStructureNotes
Sumatriptan[succinate] via Intravenous
  • warm uncomfortable panick inducing rush; burning sensation in my head immediately upon intravenous injection; ; relaxed cool and clear head feeling
Lactase via Oral
  • seams to decrease skin reaction to lactose
Bicarbonate[Sodium] via Oral
Carbon via Oral
  • -