An entity was taking over my mind, naturally I started injecting random substances to kill it.

As I climbed out of my sarcophagus of syringes, micron-filters, cotton-balls, IV lines and bowls made out of aluminum foil, I felt like I had been hard reset.

Mephedrone is not supposed to be a powerful psychedelic, amphetamine is not supposed to be brown and blood is not supposed to be in your urine!

Riding the line between euphoria and psychosis.

Breakthrough in the field of covert-addictology: methsulin and pyrosulin pens.

Stimfapping is hypothesized to have been practiced over 5,000 years ago when ephedrine first started being used in traditional Chinese medicine.

Due to its mild dopamine releasing effects it is likely that proto-stimfapping occured.

3:00 50mg Orthophedrone IV
3:05 50mg Orthophedrone IV
3:10 50mg Orthophedrone IV

Psychotics and other lifestyle-chemicals

Doctors opted to inject morphine rather than administering it orally, in the hope that addiction would not develop.

If this is a mind manifesting drug, than my mind is both love and a nighmare swarm of angry spinning rainbows.

When a thought seams intrusive, show it kindness.

Seams like the degenerate supportive drug-addicts are still here!.. shuuu!!.. go away!.. this drug wiki is only for us pseudo-intellectual drug-addicts!

Fund our developers cathinone habits to accelerate moderation!

Listening to music while experiencing IV serotonin rush adds amazing metallic distortions and extra depth when its not inducing a intense fear of death.

Are you abusing the fact that your super serious professional moderator is on MDMA?

Don't IV crushed up methylphenidate XR pellets kids!. Not because it will destroy your lungs but because its not fun.

Shit.. I gave away too much detail!, the feds are going to hunt me down and charge Molly(my adorable plush bunny), for all the heinous crimes she has commited!

Having stayed awake for the past 6 days made me forget about all the events which aren't happening in my life.

Sherlock Holmes occasionally used morphine and sometimes cocaine(which he injected in a seven-per cent solution).

Introducing... paperclip cancer soup!

Im tired enough, make me stop being sad you stupid acetylated morphine garbage!

> Has first 30 minute session with a new psychiatrist
> Leaves with two antipsychotic prescriptions

> takes sertraline to inhibit CYP2D6 and antacids to raising my urinary pH enough to reduce urinary excretion of certain amines
Only to make this be remotely enough dextroamphetamine to get high

I abuse the wiki by treating it as a friend and dumping all my thoughts into it, that way Im never alone.
Inject the wiki into my veins!

Honestly I don't care. Im so done.

You are not alone. You will get through this. You are loved... even if only by me. Run if you need to run.

Schrödinger's brain

Turn half that smile upside-down!

Transcending dopamine availability and biweekly sleep!

Hermann Göring called Dr. Morell Der Reichsspritzenmeister, ("Reich Master of Injections").

Dr. Morell went on to prescribe powder cocaine to soothe Hitler's throat and clear his sinuses.

Fade away alone in terror, dreaming of what wonders we could have shared.

A concoction of egg whites and brandy laced with a small amount of strychnine.

These veins?, golden!

If I collapse right now I will never get back up again.

> looks at a vial of my own rotting blood with tiny cobwebs inside
"if this is a metaphor, I don't think I get it"

In organic chemistry, amphetamine is an excellent chiral ligand for the stereoselective synthesis of 1,1'-bi-2-naphthol.

A bump goerli-speed-paste a day keeps the dark thoughts at bay.

The reality of a junkie: you have a bag and no syringe. what do you do?!

Subjective effects: irritability, ...
Subjective effects?!!, Im about to give you some subjective defects if you don't shut up!!!

Trevor Moore(My Computer Just Became Self Aware): I got a gram and shoved it right into its USB port!!!

Just a lost child who tried to escape into their only comfort.

During the minute long 250mg infusion, pools of tears were washing over my blood stained arm and around the butterfly needle I had just violently thrust into it.

Super Hans: He is in a k-hole right now, but in 10 the speed will kick in.
A can of coke and a cigi. He'll be right as rain.

Hold on girls!, we are going to make a spliff out of nutmeg(myristicin and elemicin) and banana peals!

Super Hans: The endorphines(α-endorphin, β-endorphin and γ-endorphin) kicked in and I couldn't stop!

Super Hans: I don't know what to think, I have seen through the iron needle. I have seen it. I have finally bloody seen it!. I have pulled open the hurt locker and had a big old rumage around!

Sernylan: bupropion is like: what if aliens wanted to make a cathinone... and they failed

This white powder could potencially be amphetamine, even kind of tastes like it, is that enough assurance to push it directly into my veins?, of course it is!

I have run from the shadow-police. do you think I can't run from ordinary-cops?

No impulse controll, zero fucks given

Smocaine (Smocaine 3): Kid was 16 years old, in montgomery park, jacked up on so much P2P, his eyes had spirals in them. His mother didn't even know who the fuck he was.

Deucey (Smocaine 3): If anybody in here is going to be taking this P2P it ain't going to be kids, it's going to be me!

He is a dahm good cop when he's straight and sober but somehow the heroin gives him an edge!, make him smarter, stronger, faster than any regular man could ever be!
His name? Smocaine!

Sarge(Smocaine 3): Dammit smocaine, I know the heroin makes you some kind of super-cop, but you can't keep going around the city crashing up cruzers!

Smocaine and Deucey make it through the warehouse undetected, thanks in no small part to Smoc's heroin amplified stealth and oxy80-boosted infiltration tactics.

When they reach the kingpin's inner sanctum, Deuce is ready to start blasting but Smocaine uses his drug-addled lighting-fast genius brain to come up with a clever undercover ruse...

Sorry my parsing is shoot... I should have another shoot

Just caught myself referring to this organism as my host... interesting to think of myself as a parasitic obsessive intrusive thought driving this organism insane... naw that surely doesn't sound like me

Curiosity killed the cat and I couldn't give any less of a shit.

TV Series Pitch: Breaking Bad but walter instead racemises the pseudoephedrine, oxidizes it to methcathinone, gets massively dependent on mad cathinone-use and than dies peacefully one year later from manganese poisoning induced parkinson's

World War I saw the greatest use of cocaine amongst militaries.

Occasionally the realization that I am trapped in an organic-creature becomes very distressing, really nothing seams meaningful or comforting anymore, sick of pretending I even vaugely care.

I love being trapped in this head!

Wouldn't it be horrible if this time I actually died now?
Wouldn't it be pathetic if you threw your chance at a more wholesome future in the trash because you couldn't stop poking your arms bloody?
Wouldn't it be sad if you disappointed the people who believe in what you do?
Wouldn't it be horrible if the people that do care about you will have to shead tears for this bullshit?
> takes another shoot

Like any good chemist I am doing this drunk and while cooking a meal.

Today on magical adventures at goerlitzer park: "that's not methamphetamine!"

The Mercury physicians issued Glenn a number of medications for his survival pack, including morphine for pain, mephentermine sulfate for shock, benzylamine hydrochloride for motion-sickness, and racemic amphetamine sulfate (a common pep pill) for a stimulant.

Fetch the Anaesthetist, I want to go under the knife, I believe in this!

Checksum your reality!

I wish there was a way to checksum my reality to confirm if my perception had significantly altered, I feel like the thought that nothing is inherently quantifiable breaks me, not only because it means that checksumming reality is impossible, but because everybody(including me) keeps pretending that things are quantifiable and that any of those quantifiables remotely matter.

Im sorry to tell you this man. Look around you these kids are goobers man. They are turds.

Dereck is on ritalin, he looks like he is having a stroke. Look at him!

Charls is a mental-patient, ok?. He has no interest in winning or loosing. He is chaotic-neutral.

Im here with you, its going to be ok. I promise, I promise, I promise! please don't loose hope for no reason.

My best any% 4-liters-of-used-needles run is 30 days

The natural urge to perform an intravenous injection.

Oh sertraline is a CYP2D6 inhibitor you say?, interesting!
> continues uncontrollably shaking in place

Reducing underdosing: Underdosing is an often overlooked and underestimated type of medication-error resulting from dead or residual volume. However, there are ways that help to avoid the decreased treatment responses it can cause.

Magnesium-Based Lifeform(Disco Elysium): It is generally understood that human beings are carbon-based organisms, fusing little carbon tubes together to form complex, mushy structures capable of thought, love, and locomotion.

It is also known that these structures sometimes like to “take the edge off” by consuming ethanol, amphetamine, etc. In such cases, it is important to supplement your body with magnesium. Tired? Mag it! Down? Mag time! Liver damage? MAXIMUM MAG!

Magnesium-Based Lifeform(Disco Elysium): HELL NO. You’re about to become a magnesium-based lifeform. The age of the primitive carbon-man is done. No longer must mankind rely on slow-working background-radiation to take us further into our genetic destiny.

This is the era of guided-evolution, and magnesium is the key. You are the first of your species. The next step in human evolution. An advanced magnesium proto-man who mags it up, drinks it down, and sniffs it sideways!

My psychiatrist told me she sees value in the concept of AnodyneWiki.

It was like nothing I ever experienced. I felt truly understood telepathically. It made me want to focus on building a life... I felt like I had never been this happy in my life before, even long after I had fully crashed out and communication had broken down.

I would do anything to go back to that state, anything!!!

Last time that I thought I was having a stroke and the right side of my body and sight was fading at 4 am. I decided not to call an ER but just inject more orange poisoned amphetamine and keep laying there alone listening to the rain waiting to see if I pass or not, not even able to cry.

Common adverse reactions of methylphenidate include euphoria

In rhesus monkeys with a previous history of 3,4-methylenedioxymethamphetamine (MDMA) self-administration...

(A Simple and Convenient Synthesis of Pseudoephedrine From N-Methylamphetamine): While N-Methylamphetamine itself is a powerful decongestant, it is less-desirable in a medical setting because of its severe side-effects and addictive properties.
Such side-effects may include insomnia, agitation, irritability, dry mouth, sweating, and heart-palpitations. Other side effects may include violent-urges or, similarly, the urge to be successful in business or finance.

While observing the texture of my room's sealing start to lose more and more if its details before turning into a constantly morphing soup during the peak of stimulant psychosis

I was thinking about how I have previously recontextualized the experience of berlin as a beach town or a sci-fi city with flying cars, etc in my memory without any issues and wondered if a mind accepting a new reality which is abstracted from the unnecessary entropy found in our "reality" is possible and maybe even desireable.

Will I manage to finish refining amphetamine, before I pass out on my 3rd day awake while nodding on diacetylmorphine??!!!. Stay tuned to find-out!

> crushes 130mg shard of methamphetamine hydrochloride like a piece of rock candy
omg!... the unconditional happiness button works again

I miss my previous sensation of being euphoric and at times starting to hyperventilate just because I am free, outside and alive.

Who are you calling a junkie?!, have some respect!

I am the entire needle-exchange and its loyal userbase!

AnodyneWiki 24/7 Professional Junkie hotline at your service!

If you choose to proceed, be aware of your own thoughts.

Mirtazapine is a great antidepressant!, instead of wanting to sleep for 14 hours... it forces me to sleep for 14 hours.

I don't have brain-damage. I am just playing 4d chess and y'all are my pawns.

> takes a hit from the pseudoephedrine freebase vape.

EDTA is used as a weapon to kill vampires, exploding when in contact with vampire blood.

Pinkestman: I hate fucking society all those fucking people. Fuck all this I want to wipe my mind.

People are enigmatic creatures in Anodyne, found primarily in the Mountain Cave. They do nothing but walk-around and make strange chattering noises.

Stop stealing my cathinones you gready enzymes!

Sitting in the rain.... with euphoria!, I love rainy rain!

uhh, ok I'm slightly saddened, my arms are starting to scar and I feel so alone

> continues hitting self for no reason

I have 99 regrets and most of them are related to veins I am no-longer able to access.

Biggie Smalls(Suicidal Thoughts): I wanna leave I swear to God I feel like death is fuckin' callin' me.

I am gone. Everything is completely dark than pure white. I accept that I will now experience what remains of existance after death.
> bolts up awake at the edge of tears

This shit wouldn't have been published in the highly exclusive anodyne journal of applied degeneracy.

There is nothing more powerful than a free-mind (that has accepted death).

My remaining sanity is operating at never before seen levels of coherence!

You have no idea how much of my internal-dialog is just different voices begging each other for non-existant shoots.

So "traumadumping" over. Gonna talk about human-beings like lines of cell-cultures from now on.

Hamilton morris: There is alot of Jesuses out there, you don't want to be one of them. Avoid being Jesus at all costs!

have you slept yet?
how much have you slept since?
did you sleep tonight?
you just need some sleep!

Ahead of the curve! in no part aided by the vast array of voices in her head, at all times relentlessly taunting her with their unprompted guidance and granting her with boundless highly sophisticated far-reaching strategical foresight!

Joe(High Society: Is Scotland the new cocaine capital?):I just want to be up all the time. I don't want to be down anymore.

It keeps be up, basically. It keeps me sane, basically.

I can smile now.

Xeno: Isopropylamphetamine solvant for my problems.

An alien world consisting only of pain.

How can the breakdown of perception be this beautiful?

emily: trying to find the substance inbetween the spirals

0xea's advanced breakup coping procedure:
1. inject crushed up oxycodone tablets
2. make incision
3. suture back shut

Mikael: It’s so strange that a mind that knows beauty in structure would crave its own destruction, or at least the destruction of the complex biological-system that supports it.

Pascal Tanguay(Hamilton's pharmacopeia): Its not a war on drugs, its a war on poor, its a war on the unwanted people of society.

Personally, I have come to conclude that my only way out of mental illness will be the construction of a new empire!, which I will pave in unused 100mg quetiapine blisters!

Yay!, I effectively communicated caution to another-organism!

Would you like to partake of a syringe of methamphetamine?

> painfully urinates blood clots

sigh... not again!

Does amphetamine make you too wired?, than we got just the codrug for you! (amphecloral -> amphetamine + chloral hydrate)

I was recently in berlin transport during methamphetamine-psychosis with the distinct impression of being a dysfunctional-outcast traveling through this massive singular-creature build up out of cruel uncaring mechanisms of conformity, complacency and cohesion.

Therapist: why are you even seeking therapy? this spread-sheet says you seam to be doing ok.

Its a nightclub. Its normal. She is probably on drugs. She is probably having the time of her life.

Is being in your mind like walking a mental tight-rope? Let me push you off...
I would rather have my hands and feet blown-off in afghanistan than have to live in a mind like yours.

A minute in your head is an hour of agony but a year of your life is worth one second.

One 10 minute ape-to-ape interaction and reminder that in 3 months I am going to be living of my savings later:

hell yeah its 150mg unhappy methamphetamine time!

Eliot (Mr. Robot): This!. the thrill of pwning a system this is the greatest-rush. Got access! The feeling never gets old.

I love driving hypodermic needles into veins at the climax of aggressive-music, it kind of turns the experience into something very exciting... like hunting another-organism and directly hyjacking its blood-stream.

Elliot Alderson(Mr.Robot): I exist in a world where I'm a shadow

Tyrell Wellick(Mr.Robot): The lines between reality and illusion fade quickly.

Irving(Mr.Robot): You can’t break the system without breaking a few rules.

Mr. Robot (Mr.Robot): I am clearly too crazy for you to say no to.

Just say no to molecules.

There is no escape.

I'd limit myself to injecting only freshly recrystalized clear shards kept under argon-atmosphere if I was in the place.

When caught destroying what is dearest to your being, suspend disbelieve and let yourself go insane.

A drug-deal gone right!

You have a chem craving. If you do not take Psycho on a regular schedule, you will suffer. If you do, others will suffer.

Welfare... demand it! don't be ashamed. the state thinks you, your hard work and your body are its property. They dahm better pay you to survive for this shit.

Ledger terminal(fallout 4): We‘re in the business of happiness

There is only so many thoughts that you can have in a life-time.

I wonder why chemical warfare is too much, but being stabbed to death fair play (in war).

Its all a thought-loop, isn’t it?

Kurt cobain: Load up on drugs, Kill your friends

Cypher(The Matrix): You know, I know this steak doesn't exist. I know that when I put it in my mouth, the Matrix is telling my brain that it is juicy and delicious. After nine years, you know what I realize?
> Takes a bite of steak
Cypher(The Matrix): Ignorance is bliss.

Incase you happen to desire forgetting all your problems while continuously staying awake 5-6+days at a time motionless, staring at a constant see of minor visuals while programming, unable to eat or drink enough, typing so much your hands start painfully aching till the sleep deprivation breaks down the language constructs required to understand what you are even doing anymore… methamphetamine might be your new edgy best friend!

... I call it ✨delirium-coding✨

Just now a singular patrol is marching round and round the parade ground interminably. All are kitted up and sing and whistle as they walk.

That’s the “pill patrol”. They’re being used to test out a new energy pill. How long can they keep going full steam on it?

Soon aural hallucinations set in, and Mantey and his fellow pilot thought they were hearing otherworldly music. The fittings in the boat began to glow and changed shape and size in front of their eyes.

But there was more to the experience than just pleasant visions. The effect grew stronger and stronger, until it became frightening. Confused, they rose to the surface and meandered around for hours. They were completely unable to remember their course later on.

His seat was adjusted, he was strapped in, surrounded by defective technology and hastily cobbled-together apparatus, cut off from contact with the outside world, inexperienced in navigation, alone on the high seas with a lot of drugs in his blood, in a metal box full of explosives.

These involuntarily spaced-out men certainly didn’t want to belong to a ‘fighting elite’ any more. What happened here was that their last reserves had just been chemically unlocked.

Normal Oler(Blitzed): Did Hitler know something they didn't? Did he have some kind of miracle weapon up his sleeve that could turn the war around?

In fact it was the immediate high of the injections that allowed Hitler to feel like a world ruler and gave him a sense of the strength and unshakeable confidence that he needed to make everyone else keep the faith in spite of all the desperate reports coming from every front.

I got me a man named 'Dr. Feelgood'
And oh yeah, that man takes care of all my pains and my ills...
And after one visit to Dr. Feelgood
You'd understand why Feelgood is his name

Jacobson himself became increasingly bizarre during the late 1960s. His amphetamine purchases became sufficient for more than 100 strong doses daily. He was buying a weekly average of 1,270 needles and 650 syringes. Favored patients could describe their symptoms by mail or telephone; Jacobson mailed them vials and disposable needles without an examination.

According to one of his nurses, "When he gave an injection he would just spill ... his medical bag on the table and rummage around amid a jumble of unmarked bottles and nameless chemicals. ... He would see 30 patients or more a day. He worked 24 hours a day, sometimes for days on end ... he was injecting himself with the stuff."

Cypher(The Matrix): He lied to us, Trinity. He tricked us!

Cypher(The Matrix): If you had told us the truth, we'd have told you to shove that red pill right up your ass!

Welcome to AnodyneWiki: the project which strives for innovation ... but only in the pursuit of obtaining and surviving the next hit

200 year old community-connector entity: As long as you can breath, everything is alright.

200 year old community-connector entity: Today I won against a car, just by standing my ground.

What if Hitler had α-PVP instead of Meth?

Hermes(Futurama): The flight had a stopover on the Brain Slug Planet. Hermes liked it so much he decided to stay of his own free will.

Wonder if in the far future agents or implants will exist for inducing pratical on-demand non-recreational psychotic alterations you can pick and choose from.

My code keeps breaking through my own actions magically, I think I need to properly refactor, plan some things and stop coding during psychosis.

Fry(Futurama): Everybody out of my body or the brain gets it!

If you OD, I'll come find and naloxone you. You dirty bastard!

Kary Mullis(Dancing Naked in the Mind Field): I wouldn't try to publish a scientific paper about these things, because I can't do any experiments.

I can't make glowing raccoons appear. I can't buy them from a scientific supply house to study. I can't cause myself to be lost again for several hours. But I don't deny what happened. It's what science calls anecdotal, because it only happened in a way that you can't reproduce. But it happened.

As a organic-being of the derived primate-family: I would never ingest or create chemicals that reduce suffering, or dare I suggest... cause the adverse reaction known as "euphoria" that would be abuse!

Howdy, fellow degenerates!

Lucky-0xea is said to redose faster than her own shadow can finish registering.

Hamilton Morris(New Frontiers of Sobriety): I’m a pharmaceutical masochist. Curiosity, the things you’ve made me do!

Alphys(Undertale): Nothing is happening. I don't know what to do. I'll just keep injecting everything with "determination".

The creation of these chemicals is an extraordinary feat of interdisciplinarity; often the pharmacologist, the chemist, the posologist, the toxicologist, and the experimental animal are all the same human being.

How do we punish those whose remorse is already greater than their misdeed?

M. (Interview with a Ketamine Chemist): The first thing I remember is riding in an ambulance, being asked all sorts of questions by paramedics about what it was and how much I’d taken. In their opinion I was a fruit loop.

As I later found out, they also thought I’d tried to commit suicide after finding some printed pages full of vitriolic rants in a drawer next to my computer. It took bloody ages for them to believe that the rants were written years ago as a form of therapy where you put down your feelings in writing in order to exorcise said feelings.

It was three weeks before I convinced them I was not a suicidal maniac, but rather that I was a pharmacologist investigating the structure-activity relationship of 3-methoxylated arylcyclohexylamines… That was one they’d never heard before.

Kim Wozencraft(Rush): I am crawling on the floor, scuffling, looking for one tiny speck of white, hoping for a rock, hoping for one more heart-slamming rush, wanting to get up there where I can smile eye to eye at the Holy Trinity and say, "Hey, boys, what's happening?"

My body wants to go there and my body is crawling on the floor and my brain is trying to keep up, there's a continent between my body and brain, there are light years between my eyes and hands, there is a nanosecond between where I was twenty minutes ago and where I want to be now.

One more rock. One speck of white. So tiny. So little. Such a small space between misery and joy. I pick up white pieces from the brown carpet. My knees burn as I crawl. A bit of cotton, pieces of lint, a speck of white paint from the wall. Trash.

I want to watch Jim put the needle in my arm, slide it smoothly into the vein, I love that little piercing pain that comes right before the ocean hits my heart.

I am such a dahm good narc.

Dr. Johnson(Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas): He who makes a beast of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man.

What is your current urinary pH? it better be in alkylosis!, we are losing phenethylamines here!

Kim Wozencraft(Rush): He knew I was high and I knew I was supposed to be high. It was part of my job.

"Wait'll you make a junkie" he said. That's when things get real.

We can go further!, go where no degenerate has gone before!

Clearly life is just a chemical logic puzzle.

Tommy(Hepatitis Country): You can life 40 days without food, 6 without water, but only seconds without hope.

There is no such thing as a free lunch.

Paracelsus: The dose makes the poison.

Povl Krogsgaard-Larsen(Hamilton's pharmacopeia): Everything has a price, in medicinal chemistry.

I want a chancellor who jumped off a 15-meter-high bridge during a psychotic episode.

Shadow people can be friends... They can even do shadow-code-review for AnodyneWiki!

I don't go through boxes of tissues because the tissues made me sad. I am going through boxes of tissues because I feel sad and need something to mop up the tears.

Kayrite: Some people are built for a world that dosen't exist, has never existed and never will exist.

Screw diacetylmorphine I depend on 24/7 access to PubChem!