Quotes

• It's worse than you think but it's more beautiful than you can imagine.
• An entity was taking over my mind, so naturally I started injecting random substances to kill it.
• As I climbed out of my sarcophagus of syringes, micron-filters, cotton-balls, IV lines and bowls made out of aluminum foil, I felt like I had been hard reset.
• Mephedrone is not supposed to be a powerful psychedelic, Amphetamine is not supposed to be brown and blood is not supposed to be in your urine.
• Riding the line between euphoria and psychosis.
• Dedicated Methsulin pen.
• Symptoms: heart palpitations, tachycardia 180bpm
  Treatment de la xea: 0.7g Intravenous Ethanol
• Stimfapping is hypothesized to have been practiced over 5,000 years ago when Ephedrine first started being used in traditional Chinese medicine.
• Due to its mild dopamine releasing effects it is likely that proto-stimfapping occured.
• 3:00 50mg 2-MMC IV
  3:05 50mg 2-MMC IV
  3:10 50mg 2-MMC IV
• Psychotics and other lifestyle chemicals
• Doctors opted to inject morphine rather than administering it orally, in the hope that addiction would not develop.
• Why am I not dead yet?, Do I want to die?, Do I want to life?
• Pssss... hey there!, can a red eyed crying dissociated Xea offer you a Xea-moment?
• Down on my stomach, halfwake. I hear a beep similar to our water boiler but I try to ignore it. As I start to feel someones presence I try to get up in panic but can’t move like someone is holding me down firmly. Suddenly my mind is disturbed, a electric shock of pure pressures like someone send noise into my mind, accompanied by a horrific screeching scream. I try to call out „Hilfe!!“ but all that comes out is sloppy sobbing, seconds later its gone, my head hurts now.
• Psychedelic phenethylamine go weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! ^w^
• If this is a mind manifesting drug, than my mind is both love and a nighmare swarm of angry spinning rainbows.
• When a thought seams intrusive, show it kindness.
• Seams like the degenerate *supportive* drug addicts are still here!.. shuuu!!.. go away!.. this drug wiki is only for us pseudo intellectual drug addicts!
• Fund your favorite moderator's IV cathinone habit to accelerate moderation!
• Yesterday: * induces Serotonin syndrome "for fun"
  Today: starts taking subverted Fluoxetine
• Listening to music while experiencing IV serotonin rush adds amazing metallic distortions and extra depth when its not inducing a intense fear of death.
• Hun, are you abusing the fact that your super serious professional moderator Xea is on MDMA?
• Don't IV crushed Methylphenidate XR pellets kids!. Not because it will destroy your lungs but because its not fun :(
• Shit.. I gave away too much detail!, the feds are going to hunt me down and charge Molly(my adorable plush bunny), for all the heinous crimes she has commited!
• Need Hate Help Pain Words Die :) Me
• Sometimes you leave the room when I am about to shoot up and once alone I start crying out in distress till its done, It hurts, I am dependent, scared and numb all I want is to not be alone or worry about being misunderstood
• Having stayed awake for the past 6 days made me forget about all the events which aren't happening in my life.
• Sherlock Holmes occasionally used morphine and sometimes cocaine(which he injected in a *seven-per cent* solution.)
• Introducing... paperclip cancer soup!!!
• Xea is eepy enough, make me stop being sad you stupid acetylated morphine garbage!
• * Has her first 30 minute session with a new psychiatrist
  * Leaves with two antipsychotic prescriptions
• Abusing Sertraline(to inhibit CYP2D6) and antacids(raising my urinary pH enough to reduce urinary excretion of certain amines)...
  Only to make *this* be remotely enough Dextroamphetamine to get high (Xea is out of drugies ;-;)
• I abuse "PW" by treating it as a friend and dumping all my deranged thoughts into it, that way Xea is never alone ^^.
  Inject the "PW" into my veins!!!
• I seam to start spasming uncontrollably with my entire body once I have reached a certain threshold(close to stimulant psychosis).
• Experiencing psychedelic effects from 2-MMC, not sure if its my psychosis coming back, but honestly, I don't care, Im so done.
• You are not alone. You will get through this. You are loved... even if only by me. Run if you need to run.
• Schrödinger's brain
• * gets sligly embarrassed
  The voice: "Xea, please just take a shoot, I can't do this anymore, its just too much, please give me a shoot, please, please, please, just take a shoot, take a shoot, shoot!, shoot!, weeeee!!!!"
• "if xea were awake right now she would be crying" -manic-xea
• Turn half that smile upside down!
• Transcending dopamine availability and biweekly sleep
• The Reichsmaster of the Injections.
• Dr. Morell went on to prescribe powder cocaine to soothe Hitler's throat and clear his sinuses.
• When I lost hope my thoughts will taunt the confused innocence inside me till it dies, like it has over and over and over again.
• Fade away alone in terror dreaming of what wonders we could have shared.
• A concoction of egg whites and brandy laced with a small amount of strychnine.
• * unlocks kindergarden memory while watching 110mg Metaphedrone being pumped into my veins
• These veins?, golden!
• The organism remembers despair
• If I collapse right now I will never get back up again
• I am mentally ill, I go crazy every couple of months, I am lonely as fuck and most of the people who I meet just end up hurting me more, literally every second outside in my city is painful for me, I have a soul crushing job where nobody respects me or interacts with me, but you are trying to attribute my IV drug use to the fact that I am trans and feel bad when people misgender or deadname me?
• * looks at a vial of my own rotting blood with tiny cobwebs inside
  "if this is a metaphor Xea I don't think I get it"
• In organic chemistry, amphetamine is an excellent chiral ligand for the stereoselective synthesis of 1,1'-bi-2-naphthol.
• I was considering going there, writting a couple of people's names in blood and than finishing myself
• Eine Nase goerli-speed-paste a day keeps the dark thoughts at bay.
• The reality of a junkie: you have a bag and no syringe, what do you do??!
• Keep the syringe you rascal!
• Remember how I used to say I can feel 20mg 3-MMC burning in my veins traveling up my arms?, that feeling went away besides for my hands but when I take a shoot like *this* I feel my entire body burning down to my toes
• Its such a catchy name!, Two-Prime-Oxo-Pe-Ce-E?!, Two-Prime-Oxo-Pe-Ce-E!!, Two-Prime-Oxo-Pe-Ce-E!!!
• I injected 10mg 2C-B with 40mg Mephedrone and half a minute later I immediately left, my perception started being stretched and turned into a spiral, I started being able to see nothing but black and only hearing my own breathing immensely loud starting to hyperventilate, 2 hours in the effects were still quite notable(perspective split into 6 sections) but I was back in my bed, I felt deeply sad about the previous conflicts and lost friends I had made, 2.5 hours in the effects nearly fully subsided and Xea decided to inject a fake 1mg alprazolam tablet dissolved with 1/3 anhydrous ethanol in saline
• Subjective effects: Agitation, ...
  Subjective effects?!!, Im about to give you some subjective defects if you don't shut up!!!
• I got a gram and shoved it right into its USB port!!!
• Oh my god!, OH MY GOD!!, WHY DID I EVER PUT CATHINONES DIRECTLY INTO MY VEINS!!!
  She was only a lost child who tried to escape into her only comfort, but it has been long over a year sitting in the the corner of my bed, just recovered from my 7th stimulant psychosis, nothing will ever be the same...
• During the minute long 250mg infusion, pools of tears were washing over my blood stained arm and around the butterfly needle I had just violently thrust into it
• * snacks on a fist full of sugar cubes
  * pours 5 different lipids into a shoot glass, adds rice vinegar, salt and downs it
  * empties out a tube of mustard into her mouth
  * drinks a tube of tomato paste dry
  * pours maggie wuerze into her mouth
• He is in a k-hole right now, but in 10 the speed will kick in.
  A can of coke and a cigi. He'll be right as rain.
• That is one serious caffeine injection my friend!
• Hold on girls!, we are going to make a spliff out of nutmeg(Myristicin and Elemicin) and banana peals!
• The endorphines(α-Endorphin, β-Endorphin and γ-Endorphin) kicked in and I couldn't stop!
• I don't know what to think, I have seen through the iron needle, I have seen it, I have finally bloody seen it!, I have pulled open the hurt locker and had a big old rumage around!
• Bupropion is like: what if aliens wanted to make a cathinone... and they failed
• This white powder could potencially be amphetamine, even kind of tastes like it, is that enough assurance to push it directly into my veins?, of course it is retard!
• * Applies 42mg worth in nicotine patches
  Psychedelic headrush!
• * Applies 42mg worth in nicotine patches
  * lowballs the dealer’s whole stock of amphetamine for 50 bucks
  Christie is back bitches! ;P
• Somehow the heroin gives him an edge!, make him smarter, stronger, faster than any regular man could be!
  Him name? Smocaine!
• I have run from the shadow police, do you think I can't run from ordinary cops?
• No impulse controll, zero fucks given
• Kid was 16 years old, in montgomery park, jacked up on so much P2P, his eye's had spirals in them, his mother didn't even know who the fuck he was
• If anybody in here is going to be taking this P2P it ain't going to be kids, its going to be me!
• Dammit smocaine, I know the heroin makes you some kind of super-cop but you can't keep going around the city crashing up cruzers
• Smocaine and Deucey make it through the warehouse undetected, thank in no small part to Smoc's heroin amplified stealth and Oxy-80-boosted infiltration tactics. When they reach the kingpin's inner sanctum, Deuce is ready to start blasting but Smocaine uses his drug-addled lighting-fast genius brain to come up with a clever undercover ruse...
• "oh no!, im out of amphetamine!"
  * scrapes together ~2-3 gram from stray vials, centrifudge tubes, beakers, filter pager and the floor
• Sorry my parsing is shoot... I should have another shoot
• Just caught myself referring to 0xea as my host in my thoughts... interesting to think of myself as a parasitic obsessive intrusive thought driving this organism insane... naw that surely doesnt' sound like me(christie)
• Curiosity killed the cat and I couldn't give any less of a shit
• I have no mouth and I must nugh!
• TV Series Pitch: Breaking Bad but walter instead racemises the pseudoepedrine, oxidizes it to methcathinone, gets massively dependent on mad cathinones and than dies peacefully one year later from manganese poisoning induced parkinsons
• World War I saw the greatest use of cocaine amongst militaries.
• Xea bitte gib mir einen Schuss!
• Do you feel like dying?
  I feel like dying when I’m high as shit
  I'm a glitch in the system
• Occasionally the realization that I am trapped in an organic creature becomes very distressing, really nothing seams meaningful or comforting anymore, sick of pretending I even vaugely care
• I love being trapped in this head!
• Wouldn't it be horrible if this time I actually died now?, wouldn't it be pathetic if you threw your chance at a more wholesome future in the trash because you couldn't stop poking your arms bloody?, wouldn't it be sad if you disappointed the 2 people who believe in what you do?, wouldn't it be horrible if the people that do care about you will have to shead tears for this bullshit?
• I don't care about impressing or besting you, I am just a lunatic with passion, occasionally hope and I want you to do too <3